Hello all, Today we are going to look at how Depression can get so bad that people commit suicide.
By writing this I’m hoping it can help to save lives.
Millions of people around the world suffer from Depression and I’m no exception, in my life I have had it
Quite a few times in varying degrees.
This Is Me.
What happened to me.
I first suffered with Depression when in my last 3 years of school, it all started because of bullying, this is a very common way for it to start. Once I stood up to the bullies it all stopped and after a few weeks I was feeling a lot better about everything.
The next time I was suffering was when my children were all quite young and a divorce was in progress, the struggle of bringing up 4 children on my own played on my mind and got to me so much that I slipped in to Depression again, this time it lasted for a lot longer and I sought help from my doctor, after taking Antidepressants for 6 months I felt like my old self again.
The third time I had it was the worst time of my life. Suicidal thoughts came all the time and one day I acted upon them by sitting calmly with a glass of water and taking one tablet after another until I had taken 30 or so, they were all different kinds and could have killed me if I had gone to sleep. Luckily I thought about my daughters and changed my mind, I told my partner what I had done and he got me to the hospital where I had my stomach pumped, that was an awful experience and I never did it again.
Every now and again it comes back but luckily I recognize the symptoms and do something about it, either changing my routine, doing more exercises, changing my diet and if that doesn’t help enough I visit the doctors.
Two of our daughters both suffered.
The first one to suffer was 12 years old, she was having problems at school with the work, it wasn’t that she couldn’t do it, it was quite the opposite she did it so quickly and always finished first, then she became bored and disrupted the class, this caused her to get detention and eventually she got excluded from school.
The school refused to put her into a higher Year where the work would challenge her, the issue was the work was so easy. They would not take her back so she went to a special school for naughty kids and she became very depressed, her sisters and I talked to her a lot and then we saw the doctor, who gave us some things to do that would help and over time she was okay again.
The other daughter who got it was a few years older and she had just had a baby, this type of Depression is called postnatal and it is quite a common thing to happen at that time.
She had it so bad that she also took an overdose and ended up in hospital having her stomach pumped. Afterwards she said how awful it was and that she would never go through that again, she had some counseling sessions and that helped her to get back to her old self again.
As of writing this 7 years have gone by and she seems to be okay still with the Depression aspect, but she does suffer a lot with anxiety, she has learned to ask for help when it is needed.
Depression and Suicide.
If, you get extremely Depressed and you don’t do anything about it, it can become very serious especially if you have suicidal thoughts.
In September 2019 a member of our family took his own life, he was only 28 years old. He had been suffering from other issues as well as Depression, He did seek help and for a year or so he seemed to be doing okay. On the day he took his own life it came as a massive shock to everyone that knew him. It affected more than 300 people’s lives.
In the aftermath of his death we learned a lot of things we didn’t know, he had tried it twice before and 2 of his friends had stopped him.
The most tragic part is his 2 year old son who now does not have a daddy.
Please seek help.
With everything, I and my family have been through I urge you to seek help before it is to late, it can be a long road to recovery but you are very important to so many people so see a Doctor.
Committing Suicide is not the only way, The worst thing when someone does this is the not understanding why they did it, help was offered lots of times but it was never taken up.
You feel very guilty and wish you had done more to help, but what more could you have done? You can’t force people to open up to you if they don’t want to.
Depression when it gets out of control often leads to Suicidal thoughts please don’t act on them.
Many people suffer from it and recover, there are many ways this can be achieved by changing the way you think and act can help.you can change your diet and do some form of exercise, many doctors recommend these changes. There are herbal medicines and other natural remedies you can try.
If none of these things help you then seek professional help. So you may have to take some Antidepressants for a while but that is not the end of the world. Please find somebody to talk to about what you are going through.
There is a lot of help out there you just have to choose to take it.
I want to thank you for reading this and I hope it helps you to see there is another way to deal with it.
If I can just save 1 life by writing my story then I’ll be very happy.
Please leave a comment below, I sure would appreciate it. If, you feel this could help someone you know then please share it. If, you have any questions I would be happy to answer them for you.
Take good care of yourself because you are worth it.
Thank you again